Annoyed today

Damn diet may kill me.  Its my own fault though, no one else to blame by myself.  I don't think I'm ever going to get out of the 240 range.  Gotta stop eating so much at night.  That certainly doesn't help.

Frustrated with work too.  Our clients are assholes.  The administrative people I deal with are morons.  This one bitch is so completely clueless I want to put her head through a wall.  Why is it we have to bend over backwards for them but we ask them for one tiny favor and they crap all over it.  I don't get it.

Its just as bad at my own office.  People asking me to do shit I don't normally do.  And of course it has to be the week before I leave for vacation.  Unfuckingreal.

I just can't wait until Thursday when I can shout, "EAT SHIT FUCKERS!"

Countdown...

To vacation that is!!  Just have to make it through four days this week.  My guess is they will be pure torture but I'll make it through somehow.

Here's hoping I stay on track while away.  I know its going to be hard but I'm hoping swimming every day in the lake will help.  And its not like we eat a ton of food during the day.  We usually have a small breakfast and maybe a snack during the afternoon to curtail our hunger until we leave to go have dinner.  Just a handful of chips and soda (or beer...yeah, i know).  Its the dinner part that worries me.  Its so easy to have multiple courses because the food is always so delicious you just feel like you HAVE TO try everything!

Got on the scale this morning and unfortunately I was exactly the same as I was last week.  Bummer.  But I know its because we ate a huge (and I mean real huge) dinner last night.  And had ice cream for dessert. :/  So I'm going to weigh myself again tomorrow to see if anything changes.  Which it has to, earlier this week I was down about a pound and a half, now I'm back up again?  C'mon, can't be.  So I refuse to log my weight today if tomorrow gives me a better number.

Thankfully the weight has been coming off slowly.  Maybe a little too slowly but I shouldn't complain.  I'm just afraid of hitting that dreaded plateau.  Once we're back from vacation I'll need to step up my gym game.  I know I should go more often.  Maybe I can squeeze in a half hour each day (yes I said each day, like Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, Friday) rather than a one hour session twice a week.  Does it make a difference?  I have no idea.

I really am looking forward to vacation.  I'm actually giddy at the fact that we leave on Friday.  Sure can't wait to jump into that lake.

Plateau

Is this a diet blog?  I guess it can be.  I've been eating waaaayy too much in the evenings this whole week.  All so that I can get rid of food cooked over the weekend so it doesn't go bad.  Went over WW points yesterday yet again but only by 2, which could be a hell of a lot worse.  And because of the overeating I just know I'm not going to lose any weight this week.  Even after last week's 1/2lb gain.  Oy the torture.

Hit the gym last night, felt good, real good.  But sadly not good enough to make me want to go every day.  I don't know, getting home early is such a plus for me.  When I hit the gym I don't get home until 9pm.  And getting home late means eating late which I know I shouldn't do.  Feels like I'm undoing all the hard work on the elliptical and the treadmill earlier.

Well I have to get back to work now and pay these people I work with, not to mention myself.  Thanks for listening, whoever you are.

Getting back on track.

Sigh...

So another week of trying to stay on track with food and exercise. Smdh...

Guess I ate too much this weekend. Actually I KNOW I ate too much this weekend. Finishing my mother-in-law's coffee cake was not smart but I just couldn't put it down. Not to mention all the other stuff. Why does food have to taste so damn good?

Not going to let it get me down, just going to count my WW points and try and be good. And hope for a decent weight loss this week.

Biff, Bang, POW!

Just realized the title of my last blog and the previous one were nearly the same. I seem to follow trends when I write. Gotta start paying closer attention to previous postings so I don't end up repeatin myself. Sheesh.

So its July 4th weekend, going to my cousin's house in Long Island today to eat, drink, chat with friends, etc. Should be fun. Looking forward to seeing everyone.

With that said I should start getting ready. Bringing some awesome chick pea - orzo salad and a pitcher of Elderflower Side Cars, which I really should stay away from since the last time I consumed said beverage I ended up tossing my cookies over the porcelain bowl.

Wishing everyone a happy and safe July 4th, try not to blow off any fingers.

Cheers!

Here I go again...

Hey all, how you doing? Been a while I know (not that anyone is actually reading this). Was reading a few blog pages of people I know and love and remembered, "Hey, I have a blog page!". Though no one knows about it. I haven't publicized it to anyone. I haven't even posted the url on Twitter of Facebook. I'm what you call a secret blogger, if I can even be considered that. Seeing as how I only have a few posts that date back to 2008! Ha!

I was reading my previous posts and realized its funny how your mood changes day by day, or even hour by hour. So here's an update to my previous posts.

I was seriously looking for a new job a few years ago but nothing came of it. I had replied to what seemed like thousands of positions on line and sent my resume to agencies. Nothing. Bubkis. Nada. I resigned myself to just being content with what I have...as annoying as it can be some days. Its not as bad as it used to be thankfully. I can't tell if the job has changed or if I've just changed. The atmosphere here certainly has changed. After the turn of events that went on at work last year (and are still going on) things legitimately are better. Maybe better isn't the right word. More tolerable? Can "tolerable" even be substituted for "better"? I guess. Don't get me wrong, I still review the job site pages because you just never know what may pop up. If I end up retiring as an Office Manager it won't be the end of the world.

What am I nuts?! Wanting to open a bake shop? UGH! The hours, the commitment, the hours! Wait, I said that already. I get up early enough as it is, I couldn't fathom waking up at 3 a.m. just to bake cupcakes. And the thought of having to do precise measuring at that hour, those would be some wacky looking baked goods. I don't know, its a dream only. I watch shows like Diners, Drive-ins and Dives and think that could be me on the show. I love baking and cooking for people but I think being able to do it on my own time is more enjoyable. Especially when my husband says, "Man this is fucking awesome". Makes it totally worth it. So we will leave the cupcakes in dreamland...for now.

Ah the forever on going battle with the scale. I have always been "big". I wasn't one of those small kids who was just fat. You know the kind, the ones with little hands and feet who look like they have rubber bands around their wrists and ankles to hold in the jolly goodness. They are legitimately ROUND. And they have these moon shaped faces too. That was not me, I was just a big kid. Who turned into an even bigger teenager. Who ultimately turned into an obese adult. But I kept my promise to myself and joined Weight Watchers again this year. And yes I did finally make a commitment to visit the gym regularly (at least twice a week). And wouldn't you know it I've lost 18 pounds. Makes me feel really good. That's 18 pounds out of...a lot. But I'm on my way.

That's all I got for now. I will try and post more regularly. To think there are people who not only do this daily, they blog hourly. Who really has the time for this stuff?

Cheers!

Here we go again...

So today I'm thinking its time to make a change.

All my life I have struggled with the weight issue. Lately I can't seem to figure out what is wrong with me. All I want to do is eat. ANYTHING. I do not discriminate when it comes to food. And in large quantities. I know that you're supposed to stop eating when you fill full. Seems I never know when that actually happens until I feel like a bloated sack of protoplasm.

Thinking of hopping on the Weight Watchers band wagon again. It worked years ago although back then I only had about thirty pounds to lose. Wish it still was thirty. More in the range of seventy but that's OK. I can do this if I put my mind to it. I know I can.

I've been feeling as if something is holding me back lately. My desire to do anything outside of the house is simply not there. Of course the weather doesn't help at all. All this snow is driving me nuts. But by joining Weight Watchers I can then get my ass off the couch and out of the house on the weekends (of course the meetings are on Saturdays and Sundays).

Plus another bonus to getting out of the house on Saturday or Sunday is I get to go to the gym. Which I'm also planning on kick starting again next week. Being motivated on the weekends is so hard. Who wants to get dressed just to go workout and sweat?? Excuses really, but when you're lazy, all you need is one tiny excuse NOT to do something to NOT do it.

Yeah, its time for a change. Change for the better.