Frustrating

So another week has gone by and I've lost .4 lbs.  That's good you'd probably say.  But no, its not.  If I ever want to stop being fat I need to step up my game.  On Saturday I hopped on the scale (just to peek) and I was down 2.6.  So what the fuck happened between Saturday and Monday you ask?  I'll tell you... the Hudson Valley Ribfest happened.

Oh don't get me wrong, I had an awesome time, being with my G, eating magnificent food, listening to live music...it was a blast.  But it did me in.  Let's see between the fried pickles, chicken wings, ribs, brisket and pulled pork sandwiches, beans and collard greens, plus the deep fried bacon (really?) and the deep fried funny bones (seriously??) I managed to eat a whole two pounds and keep it on me.  Oh, forgot about the beer, must have had at least four, if not five.  Where's my head?  We ended the evening with ice cream!  All delicious though.

I'm not going to fret or worry or become moody about the tiny loss this week.  I'm just going to stay focused and eat within my points and keep my fingers crossed that I drop more pounds by this time next Monday.

Did I mention there's the Dutchess County Fair on Friday?  Hmm....  Maybe I'll have to rack up some activity points by running in the pig races.  That may help.

Challenges

Everyday is a challenge.  Deciding what to eat can make a person go insane especially when they're trying to control urges, cravings and all the bad stuff.

This morning I had a roll and coffee with a container of watermelon.  I am getting tired of cereal and yogurt.  Well, that's not true, I love cereal and yogurt but today I needed a change.  Even though I know the roll is not as healthy as the cereal the buttered roll won.  And it was good.

I've been at this point before in the diet game.  Made it into the 230's, even as far as 225 and turned right around and started going back the way I came.  I am hoping this time is different.  I really don't want to have to start this journey again especially when I've come this far.  Granted its only 22 (almost) pounds but still, it was hard.  It still is hard.  And will probably continue to be hard until I reach goal.  God that seems so far away.  I can't hurry the process though, that wouldn't work.  I'd be back at the starting line, not a place I ever want to return to.

Here's hoping for a successful "on point" week with very few challenges.

Success!

I finally broke through the 240 plateau.  It feels good, real good.  Though I wish I was a little further away from the 2-4-0.  I'll just have to live with .8lbs, stay on track and not gain.

Probably would have been a greater loss if I hadn't eaten like a pig all weekend.  Dinner out on Friday, burgers and fries on Saturday, eggs, bagels and stuffed peppers on Sunday.  Went waaayyy over my WW points for the day and borrowed from my weekly points quite a bit.  Such is life I guess.

Here's hoping I stay on track this week.

Vacation is truly over.

Sad.  This time two weeks ago I believe I was just getting up, putting on my bathing suit and getting ready to jump in the lake.  God I miss Maine.  Really.  We had such a super time.  It was nice and relaxing, no schedule to keep (unless we had a dinner reservation), no stress.  Just time to sit back and enjoy being at peace.

That was all brought to a screaming halt last week when we came back to work.  Two extremely late nights for both of us, getting home at 10 o'clock.  Up in Maine I was turning in for bed at 10 o'clock.  Its amazing how just one day can erase all those good feelings.  I need another vacation already and it hasn't even been a month since the last one.  Smdh...

In happier news (I guess) we are finally getting our roof fixed.  Yay!!  We are in dire need of a new roof, the leak in our guest bedroom is spreading and fast.  And of course there is rain in the forecast for today and tomorrow.  I'm not sure about the rest of the week but neither are the weather men these days.  Every time it rains the water just streams through the ceiling.  It will be good to finally get the thing fixed. And hopefully the leak will stop.  If it doesn't stop after the roof is done, I'm not sure what we're going to do.  We will keep our fingers crossed.

I should get back to work, got shit to do.

Later peeps.

Annoyed today

Damn diet may kill me.  Its my own fault though, no one else to blame by myself.  I don't think I'm ever going to get out of the 240 range.  Gotta stop eating so much at night.  That certainly doesn't help.

Frustrated with work too.  Our clients are assholes.  The administrative people I deal with are morons.  This one bitch is so completely clueless I want to put her head through a wall.  Why is it we have to bend over backwards for them but we ask them for one tiny favor and they crap all over it.  I don't get it.

Its just as bad at my own office.  People asking me to do shit I don't normally do.  And of course it has to be the week before I leave for vacation.  Unfuckingreal.

I just can't wait until Thursday when I can shout, "EAT SHIT FUCKERS!"

Countdown...

To vacation that is!!  Just have to make it through four days this week.  My guess is they will be pure torture but I'll make it through somehow.

Here's hoping I stay on track while away.  I know its going to be hard but I'm hoping swimming every day in the lake will help.  And its not like we eat a ton of food during the day.  We usually have a small breakfast and maybe a snack during the afternoon to curtail our hunger until we leave to go have dinner.  Just a handful of chips and soda (or beer...yeah, i know).  Its the dinner part that worries me.  Its so easy to have multiple courses because the food is always so delicious you just feel like you HAVE TO try everything!

Got on the scale this morning and unfortunately I was exactly the same as I was last week.  Bummer.  But I know its because we ate a huge (and I mean real huge) dinner last night.  And had ice cream for dessert. :/  So I'm going to weigh myself again tomorrow to see if anything changes.  Which it has to, earlier this week I was down about a pound and a half, now I'm back up again?  C'mon, can't be.  So I refuse to log my weight today if tomorrow gives me a better number.

Thankfully the weight has been coming off slowly.  Maybe a little too slowly but I shouldn't complain.  I'm just afraid of hitting that dreaded plateau.  Once we're back from vacation I'll need to step up my gym game.  I know I should go more often.  Maybe I can squeeze in a half hour each day (yes I said each day, like Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, Friday) rather than a one hour session twice a week.  Does it make a difference?  I have no idea.

I really am looking forward to vacation.  I'm actually giddy at the fact that we leave on Friday.  Sure can't wait to jump into that lake.

Plateau

Is this a diet blog?  I guess it can be.  I've been eating waaaayy too much in the evenings this whole week.  All so that I can get rid of food cooked over the weekend so it doesn't go bad.  Went over WW points yesterday yet again but only by 2, which could be a hell of a lot worse.  And because of the overeating I just know I'm not going to lose any weight this week.  Even after last week's 1/2lb gain.  Oy the torture.

Hit the gym last night, felt good, real good.  But sadly not good enough to make me want to go every day.  I don't know, getting home early is such a plus for me.  When I hit the gym I don't get home until 9pm.  And getting home late means eating late which I know I shouldn't do.  Feels like I'm undoing all the hard work on the elliptical and the treadmill earlier.

Well I have to get back to work now and pay these people I work with, not to mention myself.  Thanks for listening, whoever you are.